WAITING

It's been a while since I've written about our adoption, primarily because we've been waiting.

wait·ing-  Adj. being and remaining ready and available for use

"For still the vision awaits its appointed time;
  it hastens to the end—it will not lie.
  If it seems slow, wait for it;
  it will surely come; it will not delay."  

  Habakkuk 2:3

And, all the while, my heart swells and throbs and aches for my children. It is said that every adoption begins with a tragedy and knowing this hurts. No parent wants to hear that their child is suffering! But we know that God intends ALL for good.

"As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good."

Genesis 50:20

We met with our agency and heard more of the conditions where our sons are living. It can make a parent's mind mad if you think too hard about it, so I give it back to God. I pray and I thank Him that He is still good, even when things seem so very bad, even unfair. But God is just and I believe it.

I plead with Him on their behalf, knowing in His omnipresence that He is with my children now. They may not be known yet by me, but they are intimately known by Him. They have been.

I thank Him for loving them with a compassionate vengence so great that He beckoned us to go to them. I trust with my whole heart that He knows them by name and it's not up to me to find them. I know that He knows exactly where they are and just what they need. And, surely they don't need me, but God has chosen me and I waffle. Why me? Then I remember...

"Be still, and know that I am God."

Psalm 46:10

And He is good at being God.

So, I remember my part and I focus on waiting defined (being and remaining ready and available for use) and I make a choice that I can do that, not in my strength, but in His.

"Blessed is he who waits."

Daniel 12:12

I listen to the song, "I Belong", and pray for my little ones, longing to be the one to comfort them. In my heart already, they belong with me. But God's timing is perfect and He will not delay. He has appointed a time and I cannot miss it. They belong to Him and nothing can separate them from His love.

"For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord."

Romans 8:38-39

Prayerfully and patiently we are waiting...being, remaining, ready, available for use. God's will be done.

"I waited patiently for the Lord."

Psalm 40:1