It's quite the peculiar thing. As my thoughts wandered off today, rabbit trails led me down memory lane and I reminisced through the origins of
our adoption story. I marvel in retrospect at how astonishingly intricate and creative God is.
There are multiple key factors and I remember them precisely, all of which point to God's beautiful, sovereign plan. There are so many tiny details, I couldn't possibly document them all, but I follow them back in my mind.
It's amazing, in retrospect, to realize brief and even mundane encounters actually added up eventually to the introduction of beloved family members I now call son and daughter.
Alone in the middle of one of the poorest and most difficult places in all of the world, God plucked out, chose, ordained, and lovingly placed precious children in our hearts and in our home so very far away. He makes the world seem small.
I remember the friend who introduced herself to me one day at church. That was years ago now, but God had intentions for our meeting. She, in her efforts and kindness for yet another friend's adoption years after our introduction, was selling necklaces...
the necklace that led us to Africa. So, trailing backwards, what if her friend wasn't adopting? There would be no fundraiser. And what if Katie Davis hadn't started
Amazima? No necklaces to sell. And what if she hadn't gone on that first mission trip to Uganda?
No Amazima...Do you see where this is heading?
Retrospect.
I travel back in time to 2008. I remember the day distinctly. I was sick, REALLY sick in my pregnancy with Nova when the Chapmans
lost Maria. I remember sitting at the computer, crying, praying for them, burdened by their pain. I watched video after video of Maria Sue's life and my heart was softened for the first time to the idea of adoption...
for us.
How had I missed it before?!
And what if the Chapman's hadn't adopted Maria in the first place? And what if Steven Curtis Chapman hadn't taken that trip to China where he met her for the first time?
And what if he hadn't gone back for her? And what if I hadn't been watching those videos?
Retrospect.
It's a tapestry, so detailed and ornate, confusing from the backside, but elaborate and calculated on the frontside. No human mind could conceive of all that God has planned. No one can fathom the depths of His creativity and boundless orchestrations.
"
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9
I can remember as if it were yesterday, the feeling that we had met the woman who would help us find our children in the Congo. Unfortunately, at the time, she wasn't feeling it quite the same. Her ministry was no longer facilitating adoptions. I look back now and marvel at the timing of it all...how God led us to begin our adoption at Lifeline Children's Services instead, no doubt for plans He has for the future. (I suppose we'll have to wait for retrospect yet to come in order to get to the end of that story.) In the mean time, I'm amazed that questions from Lifeline led me to email
OFA once again and follow up with one last question, "Do you happen to know of any little ones at this time who are in need of a home?"
Expecting a no or less, perhaps no reply at all, I throw my hands in the air and just say, "Yes, you are God!" because the reply from that email was so much more than what we expected. That email which stated, "As a matter of fact, I do," was our Noble. And what if he hadn't showed up at the orphanage at that time? And what if I hadn't asked the question?
And what if we weren't with Lifeline who prompted the question to be asked in the first place? What if?
Retrospect.
Primed and ready. Waiting for a second child, the email arrived with the question we never expected. We were waiting for another little boy, but God knew. He had all the days of our India planned and He would get us to her. In retrospect, it's amazing to realize that the Lord prompted us to begin our adoption process at the very time that He was creating India to come into the world. He knew the timing, but we had no idea.
Retrospect.
It amazes me to reflect upon all that God has done, knowing full well that He is still writing His story now.
The Jesus Storybook Bible is a great children's resource which points to the retrospect of the Old Testament, preparing the way for Jesus. All of God's Word and His story from the beginning of time is leading us to the end of His story...another new beginning in and of itself.
Today is retrospect in the making, belonging to the future. We can't see what lies ahead, but God has it planned best. He sees the whole illumination. We follow Him by faith and trust that His plans are good and we look forward with excitement to the days we'll encounter down the road, days filled with revelations of backside tapestry retrospect.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD,
plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."
Jeremiah 29:11