CURVE BALL

You'd think there would be comfort in hearing that our daughter would not be having another open heart surgery.

But, in this case...that isn't so and we really didn't see this coming.

And diagrams and angiograms, echocardiograms and ultrasonograms...it all fades to a blur as the news sets in.

When the surgical team met to evaluate the results of Bea's exploratory surgery last Monday, they determined that her complex anatomy makes the next stage of her needed heart correction, from their perspective, too risky. And at this point, they are not willing to take that risk. This means that Bea is left with her heart as it is...a thought which isn't settling.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding."
Proverbs 3:5

The mama bear in me wants to fight. The mommy in me wants to cry. The protector in me will pursue that second or third opinion our cardiologist has offered...even if that means my daughter has to fly to another state to receive her surgery. We will do whatever it takes to help our girl! And the mother's love for her daughter wells up to spilling over when I look into my little girl's eyes right now.

I just love her so much!

I want what's best for Bea. I trust the Lord has a plan and that He's known it all along. I realize this curve ball is one sided and that God is not surprised. He knows. He's always known the days He planned for Bea and His ways are always good.

"Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them,
    the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them."
Psalm 139:16

So we go back Monday for all the information, to fill in the blanks and ask questions. We will pursue every avenue we can to fight for our daughter and we won't give up easily until no is no. We trust God for wisdom in all these things. We trust He will fight for Bea.

"The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."
Exodus 14:14

We don't know what the future holds, but we do know that when we opened our hearts to welcome Bea in, we stepped out in faith knowing that the God who loves us all had orchestrated our union. He will lead us and we will take just one step at a time. He knows our tomorrows and has planned them for our good and His glory. May He be glorified as Bea's story unfolds. In Him, we have hope.

"And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you."
Psalm 39:7

To be continued...

"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good."
Romans 8:28