Sometimes...I feel like the little girl I used to be (and still am in many ways).
Sometimes...I wonder how I blinked and became the grown up.
Sometimes...in my mind, I'm still that little girl way up in the tree with her dolls and stuffed
animals tied to her waist so she could climb high and perch together with all her "kids".
animals tied to her waist so she could climb high and perch together with all her "kids".
I had a dream.
When it came time to blow out a candle, I always had just one wish. I'd wish for a baby to be left on our
doorstep with a note saying that he or she was to be cared for by the youngest member of the household.
(Certainly, that was the most logical way to ensure the child was designated for me, the baby of my family.)
doorstep with a note saying that he or she was to be cared for by the youngest member of the household.
(Certainly, that was the most logical way to ensure the child was designated for me, the baby of my family.)
Believe it or not, that particular wish never came true, but in a way I have to laugh thinking
back on just how much of my childhood was preparation for what God had in store for me.
back on just how much of my childhood was preparation for what God had in store for me.
I had a dream. God had a plan.
Even though I'm a big grown up girl now, it's not uncommon for me to miss my mom and dad at times and especially in the fall since both of them joined Jesus in heaven in September. The looming autumn scents in the air, school supplies, and summer's end tend to till my heart's past pains. And, when I wish I could pick up a phone and say hello to the ones I love and miss, I'm thankful that I have my eternal Father God to talk to. I'll always have Him to talk to, to listen to.
When I was a little girl, I had a dream.
I dreamed that one day I would grow up and get to be The Mom. That's all I remember ever hoping to become. It's strange, the reality to be in the dream. I'm thankful...thankful to be trusted by God with these precious children...thankful to be a forever child of a good Father God...thankful for this day, today, from Him.
"Yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, 'If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.'”
James 4:14-15
James 4:14-15
We aren't promised tomorrow, but today we live according to God's will. I pray to give my little girls and boys the opportunity to dream and be little, all the while preparing them to be big. I pray for them to grow up loving Jesus. I pray to love them well and to grasp the brevity of this life, 'cause we live it differently when we do.
"Man is like a breath; his days are like a passing shadow."
Psalm 144:4
Psalm 144:4
It's kind of fun, actually, to realize that I'm just here...in my dream. And, one day I'll enter a new dream, the eternal dream to come.
It's written about in God's Word. It speaks of forever love in a perfect place and it becomes reality sooner than we think.
This life, it's a vapor, but I have a dream.
It's written about in God's Word. It speaks of forever love in a perfect place and it becomes reality sooner than we think.
This life, it's a vapor, but I have a dream.
"Show me, O Lord, my life’s end
and the number of my days;
let me know how fleeting is my life.
You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Each man’s life is but a breath.
Man is a mere phantom as he goes to and fro:
He bustles about, but only in vain;
he heaps up wealth, not knowing who will get it.
and the number of my days;
let me know how fleeting is my life.
You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
the span of my years is as nothing before you.
Each man’s life is but a breath.
Man is a mere phantom as he goes to and fro:
He bustles about, but only in vain;
he heaps up wealth, not knowing who will get it.
But now, Lord, what do I look for?
My hope is in you."
My hope is in you."
Psalm 39:4-7
