(My mom and dad in Israel, circa 1970-something.)
We attended the memorial service of a dear lifelong friend/father figure this week.
It was a time of reflection, sorrow, joy, memories, eternal perspective. A time to consider legacy.
"Tell it to your children, and let your children tell it to their children, and their children to the next generation."
Joel 1:3
It was an emotional day filled with childhood nostalgia in my old hometown...the kind that rips and hurts and beckons the question,
"Is it better to have loved and lost or never to have loved at all?"
The answer, of course...it is definitely better to have loved, but oh the bite of loss and I've had my fair share, more than that, it feels today. It stings and churns my heart as I remember with aching the joyful times of yesteryear...the times I long for when I stop to remember. Laughter as I reminisce plays like a slo-mo video in my heart and in my mind as a reel of floods come rushing back, set to mental soundtrack, the kind that chokes up strong in my throat. And, denial would be much easier. To not have loved would have spared the loss, but no. It's good to remember with fondness. And, it's good to consider what memories we're making in the now.
These, our legacy in process.
"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when
you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise."
Deuteronomy 6:5-7
Brodie reminds my fragile heart to focus on eternity. He reminds me that although we live and love, it's not our "best life now" we're after, yet a good life is a good thing! Really, though, what we're living for now is our best life yet to come...the life that never ends,
has no more sorrow, no more loss, and eternity with the Lord because He first loved us.
"We love because he first loved us."
1 John 4:19
He gave Himself so that we might live and live for Him, like Him, with Him.
"For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died for all, therefore all have died; and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised."
2 Corinthians 5:14-15
"This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us.
And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters."
1 John 3:16
Jesus left a legacy of LOVE. My parents left a legacy of LOVE. I'd like to strive for the same.
"Let all that you do be done in LOVE."
1 Corinthians 16:14
As I reflect upon our legacy and the eternal future of those we love and maybe even haven't yet met, I'm met with responsibility that grapples for my attention. How will they remember me? Will I have lived a life of LOVE? Will I have boldly shared of the life we're really living for? Will I have run the race well? Imitated Christ? Laid down my life? Turned from evil to do good?
How will they remember me???
"The righteous who walks in his integrity— blessed are his children after him!"
Proverbs 20:7
I consider my children, the ones who share my walls and bed sometimes, the ones who see my highs and lows, who know all of the real me.
I had a dream for these children, and here they are mine and how dearly I LOVE them!! I pray they see the real and the raw of me resound of an honest repentant heart, a dependent heart, a loving heart full of the knowledge that I can't do anything on my own, but only by the grace of God is there even a morsel of good in my soul. I pray that who they see in me is the Daddy's girl of her Father's arms, the one with childlike faith and a longing to LOVE like Him. I hope they see my failures and inadequacies and where I turn when I'm weak...to
Whom I turn when I'm so weak. HE is strong. HE is LOVE. HE is life abundant.
Oh Lord, help me leave a legacy that sings of you and testifies of your goodness, your faithfulness, your legacy of LOVE.
"Only take care, and keep your soul diligently, lest you forget the things that your eyes have seen, and lest they
depart from your heart all the days of your life. Make them known to your children and your children’s children."
Deuteronomy 4:10
"Imitate God, therefore, in everything you do, because you are his dear children.
Live a life filled with LOVE, following the example of Christ. He LOVED us
and offered himself as a sacrifice for us, a pleasing aroma to God."
Ephesians 5:1-2
{28 DAYS OF LOVE}